This week I am vibrating inside the frequency of gratitude. Last week had me googling “Mercury Retrograde Spring 2024” even though I knew it wasn’t that time. Scary glitchy happenings tested new depths of trust and faith and surrender. I am not sure how much surrender one person needs to learn in this condensed of a timeline but the theme is still running strong, so I keep throwing up my hands.
The wrinkles leftover from last week started to get ironed out on Monday. I found myself grateful that I was wearing a mask that could hide half of my face in public when I almost broke out into a full ugly cry flooded with relief.
Tuesday I woke up with ideas for hypnosis tracks and meditations. I felt the urge to paint thank you cards to send to family and friends that have been showing up for us during this challenging chapter. The flood of new ideas and the creativity urge made me realize how much mental real estate returned once things started to resolve.
I put on music and took a really hot shower and let those tears flow into the water. Rolling my head back, letting the water wash the worry out of my hair and said “thank you thank you” over and over again.
During the last week of Taj’s hospital stay we began to do gratitude lists in the morning. The threshold of Taj’s health stabilizing enough for discharge was a big moment and it felt important to anchor into gratitude at the beginning of days full of waiting and preparing and planning.
Since being home we haven’t done it as consistently but on Monday night we did a flood where we created a list simultaneously, each writing down one thing and passing the notebook back and forth. Soon, the pages were filled. The gratitude was contagious.
The more you name it, the more it grows.
Will you name some gratitudes with me today? So we can let the small appreciations accumulate? So that we may feel it in corners of our life we haven’t visited in a while? So that we can celebrate the microcosms of magic that exist, even in the darkness?
I’ll go first —
The smell in the air during my walk last night — a mixture of petrichor and firewood smoke at the same time
The fact that a word like petrichor exists
Falling asleep on the floor next to Taj and feeling like I’m at a sleepover with my BFF
The journey of unmasking and vulnerably talking about being autistic with friends and family
The miracle drug Ecluzimab and Taj’s 5th infusion happening today!
This song in the car with the windows down
The fact that I can honestly say I am really taking good care of myself through this time
Your turn!
I love you I love you I love you,
Jenna
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I’m flirting with the idea of crafting the hypnosis/meditation ideas that came to me into a Spring album about clearing space, welcoming new energy and inviting growth. If you think you might benefit from this album I’d love to know what themes are on your heart so I can work some community magic into the scripts before I record. Please take 3 minutes to fill out the community form here!